Friday, August 29, 2008

Going to my moms!






So tonight im going to my moms, but tonys not going :( He has to work on sunday and we had already made plans to go over there. So I was supposed to take the car and leave either saturday morning or sunday morning. But tony told my dad that he had to work and that i would be driving by myself unless they came over, so of course my dad calls me and says "are you crazy? You are not driving your car over here with the baby in it by yourself! your car is not dependable!" So they are coming over here to pick me up. Its gunna be weird not having tony with me! Im not sure if ill be able to sleep at night?! It will be good for me to get out of the house though, Im always cooped up in our apartment because theres nowhere to really go around here, just the mall and why go there without any money lol! And plus im sure tony wouldnt mind having a few nights with peace and quiet and no bitching! I am gunna miss him though :( He better miss me lol! I dont understand how my mom deals with bubby being gone all the time! Yea me and tony need our space but thats why he works and i stay home, thats our space. I cant imagine being away from him for a week let alone 6-8 weeks like my parents! ID GO CRAZY! Its funny cuz like i get so excited when he gets home cuz it seems like its been a whole entire day since ive seen him! Even though by the time he gets home im wore out and bitchy i still love it when he walks threw the door! We have our ups and downs like every couple does but he does do alot for me. If he didnt love me he wouldnt deal with my shit and he definatly wouldnt work his ass off just so i could stay home with LT! What i love about him most though is how he is with LT. Ive seen on the TV shows how fathers are with their kids and stuff but tonys nothing like them. Yea they spend some time with their kids but the way tony is is totally different. When he gets home he goes straight to LT gives him a HUGE hug and kiss and will play with him until its bed time. Every chance he gets he dedicates every second to LT. The dads ive seen play with the kids for a little bit then its like ok time to watch tv or time to hang out with mommy. Tony gives me attention too but it makes me happy to see him spend all of his time with his boy! I know tony cant wait until LT is bigger so he can buy some four wheelers and they can go out on those and have daddy son time. Hes already wanting to buy him power wheels and mini dirt bikes! I just know that when we get a house we have to get a garage just for LTs cars and bikes lol!! Oh well i guess i better start packing the worse part of going outta town for a few days is definatly packing cuz nine times outta ten i forget something lol!!

Thursday, August 28, 2008

Its just a major bitch fest goin on here!!

Ok yesterday i got a letter on my door saying that my neighbors are complaining of abbi pooping by their doors, and that abbi needs to be on a leash and i have to clean up her poop. OK i admit shes not on a leash but the poop on peoples door steps come on!! So i went out there today and picked up all the terds and i thought to my self "if abbi poops that big her butt must really hurt" These turds are the size of a beagles poo! Abbi has little poops! So then I took her out to go potty and this little old lady says "do you know your dog barks all night long?" Me and my neighbors can hear it and we live two buildings over. So i said mam you have the wrong dog cuz shes not outside at night! And she said Yes it is my neighbors said that it comes from this building and they dont see any other dogs there. and she was being rude! so i said well mam your neighbors are a bunch of liars and i walked away! are these people freaking serious? After all the crap this complex has put us threw everybody is gunna bitch about a dog barking? Well heres my bitch list. Dana the apartment manager leaving her cat outside to breed in the bushes then all the kittens grow big and spray our patio! The hindus that live upstairs that come outside at two in the morning to talk on the phone so loud i can hear them in the baby monitor! Um what else oh when the hindus walk down the stairs they sound like a pack of damn elephants not to mention they slam their door! And they also swim naked from what the maintenance guy told me! Everyone manages to park on top of my car and its ALWAYS on the side that the car seat is on!! So yea im pretty upset. If abbi was barking or pooping everywhere i would understand and at least i was decent enough to pick up all the poop i could find surrounding my building! I understand that its a health hazard but the dung beetles need to eat to lol jk!! Im so frustrated maybe its because im hormonal/menstrual and my hair is falling out in heaping handfuls! Ya know whats funny is the apartment manager is only 19 and has pictures of strippers and stripper poles on her car? classy huh? shes usually cool but she has her moments! Shes never in the office ever. if its saturday morning nine times outta ten shell smell like booze and her hair is outta wack! she takes five hour lunch breaks everyday! She has a system in her car and she blares it ALL THE TIME! see i could go on for hours.! oh well im gunna go push LT in his swing!

Nothin to do! Besides blog!

Yesterday went by so much better then the day before! LT was still a little crabby but I could easily amuse him so he wouldnt be so crabby. Tony put up the swing that we bought him the other day. LT loves it until he gets sleepy lol. I wish our apartment complex would build a playground! I seen in their brochure when we first moved in that they were going to build a "tot lot" and a "bark park" for the residents only. Which would be awesome bc we need a playground that homeless people dont reside at! And itll give me and LT something to do instead of playing in the grass! I wouldnt mind going to the pool but for some reason people who live in the apartment complex across the street come over here to swim. And needless to say they bring all of their friends and 12 kids and they tear up our pool! Last time they put a whole roll of paper towels in the womens toilet! and weve seen socks and stuff at the bottom of the pool after they leave! So I dont like being around people like that especially when I have LT around me, he doesnt need to be around heathens! But last night we went to Cici's pizza and LT snatched a cheesie bread from me lol! So I let him have one just to see how he does. He ate it very well! Then we gave him some veggies and he gnawed on a carrot for a few minutes, then he tried some of their desserts. He liked their pie the best. I dont know what kind of pie it is though? I personally enjoy those powder sugar covered brownies!! YUMMY!



Then last thursday we sent his birthday invitations out! We are going to hooters!! lol gotta thank my sis for that idea! Tony says hes glad my sis mentioned it because if he wouldve said it he thinks i wouldve slapped him lol. At first i thought it was a joke then once i thought it threw it sounded like a really good idea! Its right down the street from us so everyone cant complain about gas, and LT loves boobas (boobies) and i like their wings so its a do-er lol. Then we are going to have a pool party after we eat. So those are the plans for LTs big day. But we are going to my moms on the 4th and leaving the 6th. So i think we are having a lil party for him on the 5th. I hope we go to busch gardens for a little bit, id like to take him on the baby rides they have there and take him on jungala! But we will see! I hope hes not a girl when it comes to eating his cake cuz ill smash it on him if i have to lol! I dont think he will be because hes a slob. He used to be polite when it came to food but not any more he will take a handfull of whatever it is and cram as much in his mouth before i take it away lol! And i know he LOVES frosting he takes after me and his auntie shawnie lol! Well I gotta big wiff of something that smells like a poopie diaper so i guess i better go and change him before it gets all over lol. THERE IS NO SUCH THING AS LEAK FREE DIAPERS WHEN YOUR BABY CAN OUT POOH HIS DIAPER!!!

Tuesday, August 26, 2008

LT with Floppy

This is LT with his floppy! I forgot to add it to the last blog :) But he carries this thing around usually by its ear! But at naptime or bedtime you can always find him sucking on floppys ears lol

Stressed out to the max!!!

Recently LT has been teething-BAD! Normally hes ok, just a stuffy nose and a little whiny. But these past few days hes been of the charts BAD! For one Tonys been working at his bosses house til it gets dark lately so ive been stuck with a crabby teething baby for twenty four hours it seems. It wouldnt be bad but the tylenol AND the teething tablets are in the diaper bag which is in the car that obviously isnt here! Today hes been the worst ive ever seen him. Hes throwing himself around screaming so i give him something cold to chew on it makes him more mad. So i figured since i cant go anywhere in the house with out him being up my butt i thought wed go outside for a change of scenery. It was fine for the first two seconds till he decides hes going in the flower bed infront of our door. I tell him no nicely and he sticks his lip out and does it anyways so i go get him and carry his butt to the sidewalk and he throws himself down and starts freaking out! Im shocked the neighbors didnt come out to see if i was beating him! So i laid him in his crib cuz its three oclock and he hasnt had his nap today. Things didnt go well with that idea. He started bouncing off the sides of his crib then throws his floppy (favorite stuffed animal that he got for easter) and he never leaves floppy anywhere! So i go in his room and give him his floppy. He rips floppy outta my hand and sticks floppies ear right in his mouth and starts sucking. I leave the room and about five minutes later hes out! Finally i have peace and quiet until the douche bag hindu neighbors (all twelve of them) go down the stairs sounding like a pack of elephants making abbi bark like the dumbass she is and wakes LT with ONE of her high pitched screachie ass barks! That was the end of my peace and quiet! I get him out of his crib cuz at this time hes shaking the side bar so hard its going to fall down and hes gonna be on the floor! I try taking him outside again so i could go check the mail. Needless to say i ended up carrying him so he wasnt laying in the middle of the parking lot. So i stood him next to the mail box and i took my keys from him and got the mail while he freaked out from me takin the keys. Now we are home and he is STILL screaming at the top of his lungs! What a glorious day to wake up with a headache!

Craziness in my life...


The other day, possibly a week ago, I came "out of the closet" about my alopecia. I finally broke down and told my mom. Which was a struggle for me cuz my mom usually lectures me about my health problems. Yea maybe i should take better care of myself but alopecia is something i couldnt help this time, atleast i think so! But its been a struggle for me. For one i was starting to get depressed, i mean come on i had a really thick hair and it started falling out!! I was worried that i might lose all my hair! The more i looked at my dreadful bald spot i asked god, "why the hell the hair on my head? why not my leg hairs, or armpit hairs? I wouldnt even care if it was my eyebrows i hate waxing and tweezing them anyways i could just tattoo them on but why the hair on my head?" So my biggest struggle was to find a doctor to tell me what the hell is wrong with me. Since i only have medicaid, well not even, I cant find a dermatologist. At first i had to go to the ER cuz the welfare office told me that once i spent over $111.00 i can get on united health care.WELL WRONG. I went to ER to see wtf was wrong and thats how i found out it was alopecia. I was freaked out cuz i didnt want to lose my hair! so i was stressed out for ever! So the battle with finding a doctor came to an end cuz i have a share of cost and no dr.s will take me. So freaking out again i didnt know where to start. Ive called a few hair products from the 1 am infomercials and still no luck. So i frantically called my mom and told her that i basically cant find a dr. she told me to calm down and she will see if she can get me on her insurance. I was relieved to here those words but i have yet to find out if she can get me on it. So hopefully this weekend we will try rogaine lol. To some people it may only be hair, but its not just hair to me. And i figured instead of keeping it all bottled up inside of me, ill be open about. Me being depressed isnt going to help the situation at all, it will just make things worse, as ive noticed when i clean my brush out five or six times during a brushing session and have to clean the shower drain every night!




So another thing that upset me the other day was when i got a bill for my insurance and they raised it $10! Its only $90 a month now but still! So Tony went up there to pay it and see why it went up and the lady said that i had two tickets on my record. When he told me that i was like WTF? One was a red light ticket which i got in 05 but that will be off next month, and a speeding ticket i got in 05. Which was F***ed up bc i paid $80 to take a driving class, and i passed it and mailed the certificate in. Two months later i get a letter in the mail saying they revoked my liscense cuz i didnt send the certificate on time. So my mom and i went to the DMV paid 25.50 to get my liscense back and to send them the clearance of my points paper. Ok so that was taken care of i got my liscense back. Those points were never on my insurance with state farm and when we moved to michigan they werent on there either. But all of a sudden they are on there now! So i called the dmv where i got the ticket and the lady basically told me that they never received anything to do with a test as far as they know i didnt even take one. GRR so i was like whatever bitches just keep taking my money thats what your good for! So thats the end of my bitch fest!

A lil something for my sis

So this week has been sorta crazy/stressful. For starters my sister shawn lost her cat today! Im still shocked! I loved that cat even though i didnt show it lol. I remember when my sister had her when she was a baby. She was really tiny but had the crazy kitten fur! She was so adorable! I think i picked on her one too many times cuz as she got older she got more mean to me lol, well to everyone lol. I still enjoyed her though she bit me after two or three rubs on her back. It made for a fun adventure-it was like an adrenaline rush just to pet her lol! then my sis would laugh for about five minutes cuz im terrified of a 8 lb furball, then she'd grab her and hold her so i could pet her with out losing any fingers! Even though she bit me EVERY TIME id pet her i considered it a "love bite". My sister would tell me "maybe you taste like chicken" sort of an inside joke we have! She was definitly a mommies girl lol! My sis loved her like she was a child, nothin wrong with that at all! Abbis probably the only daughter i will have lol. My sis has been threw some rough times and "dissy" was there for everything. I understand the pain my sis is going threw, people think we are crazy cuz we love our pets so much, but when you are going threw a hard time in your life you kinda turn to your pets! They dont judge you, they dont tell you your stupid even if they think it, they always listen even if they are sleeping under the bed or across the room and they know when you are sad. I admire my sis alot! though i have never said that to her! shes been threw some crazy shit, and she came out strong! From dealing with my parents ignoring her for three damn years cuz of her boyfriend/husband, to her husband being a douche monkey and leaving her while she was at school, to my parents saying told you so everyday since hes been gone, to going back to school and surviving living with my parents till she graduates. Yea people may judge her for living with mom and dad still but you know what atleast shes doing something with her life! shes not sitting at home watching nascar or soap operas eating funions all day. Me and her might not see things eye to eye and i think its the age difference but ya gotta remember we are SISTERS, but we do love eachother and we will always be there for one another. So on that note, on this sad day, I cry because I too am hurt that "dissy" is gone. I know how much she meant to my sis, and i know she will be lonely with out her, I wanna just say I love ya dissy! I will deeply miss you and your love bites! Dont forget to check in with my sis- she believes in ghosts lol and i know shes gunna miss you something terrible! I just hope my sis knows that i am here for her and she can call me if she needs to cry on someones shoulder! I love you shawnie!!! Ok so i need to stop talking about this cuz im bawling my eyes out! I love you dissy 4/1/97-8/26/2008!!!