another friggin day in slutona beach

drama still lingers in the air. I havent spoken to tonys family since saturday night and i dont plan on ever talking to them EVER. So now im thinking alot about how great our life will be when we move over by my family. Itll be great except for I know tonys going to want to visit his family and stay weekends with them just like what we are doing now with my family. This is the part im dreading...I of all people dont want to stay with his family idc if its for one night i refuse to do it. I just hope that he understands where im coming from! I dont expect him to disown his family bc his sister is a toothless bitch face but she tends to get everybody wrapped around her fingers. Shell be the favorite child bc tony moved away and heaven forbid we stay a weekend and her spot from number one goes back down to number two. Shes a needy bitch and if no one is catering to her needs all hell breaks loose! Especially when xmas time comes around OMG bc she will be there for the family dinner and what not, so it looks like im staying with my parents while he goes to see his family for xmas. I will probably have to remind him why i dont want to be around his family and i hope he understands! ah this is all mind boggling! but anyways im looking forward to going to my moms house this weekend. My dads picking me up on friday and we arent leaving until the last second on monday lol. I already know i wont want to come back bc the freedom away from his family will feel so awesomely great that ill want to stay lol. Oh well im gunna eat some ramen noodles YUMMY!

Drama seems to find its way...to me!!

My god im so over everything here in daytona. Have you ever wanted to just run away and curl up in a ball and just prey that things were different? Thats how i feel right now sort of. Ok so heres the scoop. Tonys sisters bestfriend (ashley) is a whore. I apologized to her like six months ago for judging her based on her lifestyle. well we were all cool then one day she starts feeling up on tony! And shes obsessed with him. shes always at the family gatherings and she takes like nine bazillion pictures of just tony- and some with her in them. Tony said something to amanda bc i didnt want to start drama and well drama started. Tony said something to his mom and his mom dis-invited ashley to the huge easter party. Amanda was extremely upset and was a bitch to me the whole time. Now shes saying that i need to get the fuck over it and blah blah blah and now whore bag is wanting to kick my ass. OK HOW THE FUCK AM I IN THE WRONG? IM NOT THE NASTY FUCKING CUNT FEELING UP SOMEONE ELSES MAN! if it would happen to amanda she would want the whole fucking world collapse! But for once its not all about amanda and she cant stand it! And im so over her! I dont EVER want to see her again or speak to her again. shes a fucking bitch in my book and i hope tony gets a job in tampa so we can move away from all this stupid bullshit! How the hell does amanda figure im trying to come in between them? They have ABSOLUTELY nothing i want! What could i want that they have? Government housing? FUCK NO!, 13 abortions? HAHA NOT SO MUCH! Aids, Gonorrhea, Herpes? AND AGAIN NOT SO MUCH! fuck you stupid lame ass bitches and your nasty STDS!! Im out!

LTs 18 months old!!

so im really sad that in six more months LT is going to be 2!! where did time go?? It seems like just yesterday he was learning to crawl! So this month we are buying a potty chair and we are giong to start the training process. Dr. Jeanty says to get him familiar with the potty chair but not to force him into using it. Hopefully things go smoothly! Yesterday we got his 18 month/ easter pix done and it was hilarious!! he loved the bunny! he jumped on its back and was pulling its tail then when his session was over he grabbed the bunnies hand and was pulling her over to a chair so he could sit by her lol. It was funny!

isnt his shirt the cutest??

ah its been forever!!!

I need to start remembering to start blogging lol! Nothing too much going on here. Same ol shit different day. Work sux i only work..once a month! Lately ive been sick in a way. I have no appetite, no energy and i cant sleep. I feel hungry all the time and when i eat i take a bite and feel full. Then the other day at work i got light headed and about passed out again (thats like the third time its happened) so i finally made me a dr appt. Hopefully ill get my "issues" taken care of then i can start looking for a more permenant job. Im only sticking with sears bc i have time to go to doctors and if i get another job they may not be as flexible as sears. so we will see how things go after the 9th! LT is getting huge he had his 15 month check up on monday and he weighs 24 lbs, hes 33 inches long and his head circumference is 18 inches. Hes at the 60th percentile in his weight, 90th in his height and 50th in his head lol! He has a bit of a rash and the doctor thinks it might be from his diapers so she gave us some kick ass cream! i used it three times and his diaper rash is completely gone! that has never EVER happened!! Umm theres really nothing else going on over here, LT went swimming today cuz it FINALLY warmed up! Well i have nothing left to say!!

Merry Christmas 2008!!

So the 22nd we had our first annual christmas party with tonys family at our house! wasnt as stressful as i pictured it to be. The kids played outside all day until it was time to open gifts. LT had a blast playing with all of his cousins. He got some really nice toys, mostly trucks and cars! Then this morning was our christmas cuz we are leaving for my moms this afternoon. LT gets the point of opening paper lol he realizes that hey theres toys under this paper stuff lol! He really enjoys his zebra ride on toy and his trains. Tony has to work today until 2ish and hes gunna do an oil change on his truck before we leave. Then we have to head out!! So whats my new year resolution?? Cleaning LTs toy boxes out!! He has enough new toys to replace the old ones especially after we get back from my moms!!

LT opening his present!! All the presents made our tree look tiny!! I can only imagine how my moms tree looks cuz she has a little palm tree as a christmas tree!!

Long time no write lol

Ive been somewhat super busy for the past month! Ive been working during the week from 6-whenever people go home lol. Then like a week ago my car got broken into (surprise surprise, welcome to the mall parking lot, where mall security picks their noses and asses all damn day) my radar detector and my GPS got stolen and my window got busted out and my dashboard was just chillin on the floor. My A/C vent got broken so its like whatever ill never see my stuff again. It still pisses me off that people do that shit! Get a job and make an honest living you dont have to break into peoples cars and steal their shit to make money or give as a gift. Merry christmas honey heres a gps i stole for you, ya know how FUCKED up to people have to be? This is why i hate christmas lol. But besides that ive been sick for like two weeks going on three, im over boogers already! Tony got his truck last tuesday and i dont think hes been out of it since! Well he does come in to sleep and eat lol! Its a really nice truck! Im glad to have my car back lol whats left of it after people break into it! I went to the mall yesterday to pick up a gift for my mom, and trust me i was shopping in fear of my car getting broken into again! I got my moms gift and now im safe at home lol. I have to work tonight BLAH im not looking forward to dealing with people bitching at me bc they waited til the last minute to get their pix done! Hopefully we leave before 9 tonight i hate it when we are their til ten!! It pisses everybody else off when they have to stay an hour later bc the studio still has customers! other than that nothing else going on....

So over it!

So this morning i called my dad and asked him if i could borrow some money so we could get our family portraits done and there was a certain gift i wanted to get my mom. At first he asked questions and he basically told me no bc him and mom have too many pix of LT as it is, so i was like ok what ever, and he said that my gift idea for mom wasnt a very good one cuz it was "too much money" which its not cuz of my discount but once again WHATEVER! So then he starts getting on my case about christmas is the worse time for me to not have money or something along those lines. Then he says to me " remember when you and tony had money and you got me that really nice gps for my computer?" I said yea i remember, and he was like " its nice to have money to buy nice gifts aint it" or something like that and he finishes his sentence with "thats why you should get a better job or get a second job" then he told me what he got mom and how much he spent on her so far, and i was like wow thats alot and he says yea ive been saving up for it." then he goes into this conversation "see if you guys wouldve moved in with us instead of getting that house you could have money for christmas" After he said that i was OMG here we go again! So i basically bit my tongue so i wouldnt go off on him. After all these years i thought it was the thought that counted not the price??? And if my gifts suck so bad why couldnt anybody just tell me? Now i feel like shit and i dont want to even go over there for christmas bc i dont wanna be embarrassed cuz my gifts are cheap and they spend a shit load on us. I dont want anything from them for xmas cuz i dont want it thrown back in my face, im not gunna look like a loser! And y must i get scolded for not moving in with my mom! Im sorry but im not gunna move all three of us into a house that is already occupied. I like having my own privacy! Our only privacy there would be that tiny ass bedroom!! and I refuse to share a room with LT! He snores and he wakes up if he hears us move and he makes sure we are awake and if were not he will wake us up! Its just not convenient! yea we will save money but being told what to do everyday? Not worth it! I love my parents to death but damn! Let me live my life! Im sure their parents didnt agree with how they lived their lives and they still managed to do it! Hell they dont even speak to anybody in their family! Im thinking after christmas we are going to be jahovas witness' so that way i dont have to deal with christmas stress!! Hmm that totally sounds like a "doer" lol! Speakin of christmas the other day we got bored and put our tree up, i figured well they are already playing xmas music at my work might as well get the house feeling festive but me feeling festive went down the drain today!! Hopefully shit gets better if not im gunna have to admit myself into a looney bin!!!